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Title: Walking [Evil!Sammy Universe]
Author: [livejournal.com profile] eboniorchid
Fandom: Supernatural
Characters: Sam Winchester/Dean Winchester
Prompt: "043-Giggly" for [livejournal.com profile] 100moods, challenge table here.
Word Count: ~1630 words.
Rating: R for mentions of sexuality and violence.
Warnings/Spoilers: Angst! Dark! Future. Apocalypse. Mentions of past m/m sex, manipulation, dubious-con, kink/BDSM, M/s. Wincest. Slash. Plot. AU after "Simon Said". Potential vague spoilers for Season 1 and "In My Time of Dying".
Disclaimer: I own nothing. Really. Nothing.
Summary: Step 1 of the Initial Breaking Phase: Take everything until anything more than nothing seems good to him.
Beta: [livejournal.com profile] traffic_west was my beta fantastico!
Author's Notes: Don't let the prompt word fool you. This is NOT a funny story. This is also NOT a sexy story. // This was originally written as part of the fic set that includes the upcoming "Dreamwalking" and "Walking Nightmares". // For more info about my Evil!Sammy Universe, including links to all installments, please go here.



Sam opened the door and in came … two bulky guys that Dean had never seen with their hands full of exercise equipment. Or, rather, with their hands full of a piece of exercise equipment, namely, a treadmill. They set it up on the far side of the room, near the windows that spanned the wall from the table up to his side of the bed.

Did he really have a side of the bed that he called 'his', now? Had he fallen into this little world that deeply?

Maybe he had. He didn't really know anymore. The time before was already starting to feel like it happened a lifetime ago.

He was pushed out of his musings, though, as Sam positioned himself behind and beside him, a hand settling on his shoulder, and Dean bowed his head, a nearly automatic response now, as a shudder slid hot down his back.

"You've been a bit antsy lately and I think some of it is in your head, so I'm going to increase the severity of your daily restraints to help with that."

More chains, or shorter lengths, or more rope, or tighter knots, or maybe just stocks this time, who knew? His shoulders tensed as he struggled to shut down his desire to question, to challenge, to earn himself more pain, and he nodded, a silent 'yes, sir'.

"But … I also think your body might just be missing all the strenuous activity that you're used to. So …" He stretched the word out with a following pause for emphasis, then he brought around his other hand and there was a bag hanging from it, like the ones from department stores, and he handed the bag to Dean. "Take it."

Dean let his fingers wrap around the handles of the bag, but he didn't open it, unsure of what was going on exactly.

"Open it." Sam's voice was lighter then, only slightly tinged with impatience. "Go ahead. They're for you."

As the bag billowed open between his hands and he peered down into it, Dean was surprised … and really confused. "But I thought- …"

"That you weren't allowed to wear clothes? You're not. As a general rule, at least. But I can choose to clothe my property, if I like, whether for protection from the elements or just because I want to see you in something."

He felt a little tremor of 'yes' run through his system and he almost smiled, feeling younger than he should, but he tried to press down the bit of hope that wanted to see light again. "Are you … taking me somewhere?"

Sam's quiet chuckle sank into Dean like a fist in his gut, twisting and burrowing deeper with Sam's words. "Of course not, whore. You can hardly go a few hours without earning yourself punishment. Why would I take you anywhere?"

"I just thought- … you said- … " Dean shook his head and stopped himself from getting worked up because it really didn't matter what Sam had said. He should know better than to think that there would ever be anything good here, that Sam would ever really give him even half a minute that wasn't so tainted and fucked up that sometimes his heart hurt worse than his body.

"When you can consistently be a good whore at home, I'll think about taking you somewhere. But from the way you seem to work, that looks like it might be a long time from now." Sam's voice wasn't cold or agitated, inflections only present in the way they might have been if he'd been reading from a book. "I got you that set of running shorts and the pair of sport sandals so that you won't hurt yourself when you use the treadmill."

Dean nodded slowly, trying to process things in a way that wouldn't make him have some kind of punishable outburst.

"I know you do daily exercises to keep everything in full working order, but it seems like you need to take a walk sometimes, or run off your extra energy. … So, I got you this treadmill and you're welcome to use it whenever you're not restrained or otherwise in use. Just remember to wear your new treadmill uniform and to take it off when you're through."

Huh.

Dean hadn't been out of this room at all in- … he didn't know how long exactly. Sam went out of his way to throw off his internal clock and make sure that he never mentioned any dates or even day names. From his memory of the days he'd experienced here, the days he'd been awake for, at least, he guessed it had been at least two weeks, but not quite a month. So, yeah, he was antsy as, well, ants. He didn't really take well to confinement and this wasn't even just confinement. The fact that he couldn't get permission to even just walk up and down the hallway outside the door of their suite was only part of the whole slave package. He wished he could get out of this room, even if just for an hour, see his car, drive it somewhere, anywhere, nowhere. But he wished for a lot of things that he'd never get here. That hand always held him down, whether it was on his shoulder or on his hip or not even on him at all but implied in the strength of chains, of leather, of rope. It always kept him lower, lesser, controlled. So it shouldn't have been a surprise that instead of being let out, even on some kind of leash, Sam's gift to him was a way to walk to his heart's content inside the little room that he couldn't leave. It was so bizarre and extreme as to seem comical, really.

He was like a hamster in a cage and he'd just been given his very own little hamster wheel.

He laughed. God, this was insane. He laughed, arms wrapped around his abs because his stomach was shaking. This whole world and this whole fucking life were just nuts. He laughed long and loud, bending in the middle, Sam's hand falling away. All he needed was a little coffee drip and a giant jar that would dispense Doritos when he hit a button. He laughed so hard there were tears in his eyes, dropping into a crouch on the floor and then falling over. This shit was so fucking insane and he was going insane trying to live in it. He laughed until there was no air in his lungs and he was starting to hurt, but he just couldn't stop laughing. It was all so fucking horrific and so intensely fucking serious that if he let himself have some reasonable reaction he'd probably sob until he shattered.

So … he laughed.

Sam, of course, didn't think it was all that funny, thought Dean had gone into hysterics, thought he was breaking. Maybe he was. Even so, Sam tried to calm him, sinking down to the floor and pulling Dean into his arms, petting him. His hands stayed in supposed safe places, but they were still the hands of an owner on a slave and not the hands of a brother or a lover or even just someone who Dean could imagine actually cared about him somehow. Sam rubbed slow circles at the small of his back and Dean knew it was meant to help ground him, pacify him, but Sam's hands never solved anything for him anymore. Sam's hands were part of the problem.

Dean didn't want to be under those hands anymore, didn't want them to try to placate and silence him. He didn't care if he was coming unhinged and behaving wildly. He should have the right to- … but no, he didn't have the right to anything anymore. He'd been used so often and so harshly, even in his short time here, that all he wanted to do now was scream "don't touch me" at the top of his lungs and lash out, fists and feet crushing everything and everyone keeping him here. But he couldn't even run to some corner and huddle into himself as if this body still belonged to him. Sam owned him now, so Dean could do nothing, but Sam could do anything with him, everything, wherever he wanted and whenever he liked.

He tried not to rock back and forth. It had become a bad habit, something he did when the strain of all this became too heavy. He just nodded a little to himself and took a deep breath, pulling up some piece of strength from the small reserve he still had, and his breathing slid back to something rhythmic and reasonable.

This wasn't that bad. A treadmill would be nice to have around. He might even be able to consider it kind of thoughtful as gifts went around here.

"Thank you … sir."

"You're welcome."

Sam's arms pulled him deeper into the embrace, the brush of his hands slowing until everything but their breaths were still and silent. It wasn't all that unexpected, though, when Sam shifted after a while, his hand curling around Dean's hip and his voice flowing out, deep and laden with intimate interest.

"Don't you want to thank me properly, whore?"

Dean swallowed down the spike of panic and despair until his mouth and throat felt ripped as if he'd been chewing on knives. But then he just tried to feel and not think, to give of his body and lock his mind away elsewhere. It wasn't easy and he was still learning, but the distance he needed seemed to snap into place one drop faster every time that he said what good boys, good slaves, good whores, always said to their owners, their masters.

"Yes, sir."

Date: 2007-04-04 10:09 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] ysbail.livejournal.com
You can so see this ... strong independent Dean buckling, breaking under the pressure of being a captive in this nightmare ... even in these relatively early days of his trial a gift could add to his torment ...

You're evil!Sammy seems to have lost all that made him Sammy ... Samuel, Sir ... suits him perfectly ..

Date: 2007-04-08 10:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] writingbyebonio.livejournal.com
Thank you. I'm glad the beaking process is working for you as a reader and, yes, evil!Sammy is much less Sammy than Dean would like at this point. And actually the naming of things will become explicitly important in the 'verse itself in a bit also, so ... what an excellent insight. I appreciate your feedback.
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Date: 2007-04-08 10:57 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] writingbyebonio.livejournal.com
Thank you so much. I'm glad the desperate Dean-breaking is to your liking. And as for the Impala, it is, as I said before, theoretically outside the building. Dean hasn't seen it and Sam hasn't talked about it, so ... it's status remains a mystery. :) Thanks for the feedback!

Date: 2007-04-04 11:29 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lostandalone22.livejournal.com
You do such a good job of writing dark!Sam, and I love how you're breaking Dean.

Date: 2007-04-08 10:57 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] writingbyebonio.livejournal.com
Thank you very much. I'm glad you're enjoying my Dean-breaking. And thanks for leaving feedback.

Date: 2007-04-04 12:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] la-folle-allure.livejournal.com
EEEEE!!! Man, I LOVE evil!Sam!!!! *CLAPS*

Date: 2007-04-08 10:58 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] writingbyebonio.livejournal.com
Heh. Thank you! And evil!Sammy thanks you! :D

Date: 2007-04-04 02:57 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] odd-for-sods.livejournal.com
Hamster indeed, what else could he do but laugh? The emotional trauma involved in recognising the actual state of affairs can be so much harder to bear than physical pain.

Whimper. Love, broken/breaking!Dean. He sufers so beautifully.

Date: 2007-04-08 11:00 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] writingbyebonio.livejournal.com
Thank you! I'm so glad that Dean's response to the emotional trauma seems like it fits. And I'm glad you're enjoying our dear broken!Dean. He does suffer so beautifully, doesn't he? Thanks for the feedback!

Date: 2007-04-04 03:21 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] winterboost.livejournal.com
Woosh, you blow me away with your writing.. Seriously..

I loved this story. The clothes that are given and that little flare of hope from Dean that's crushed immediately and, of course, the hysteria.. *sigh* It's brilliant. The desperation already shows here. And this quote:

[...] the distance he needed seemed to snap into place one drop faster every time that he said what good boys, good slaves, good whores, always said to their owners, their masters.

"Yes, sir."
Ooh Dean..

Date: 2007-04-08 11:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] writingbyebonio.livejournal.com
Awww, thank you! I'm so glad that the elements of the story moved you and that the desperation came through. Dean's definitely having a really rough time right now. Thank you so much for the lovely feedback!

Date: 2007-04-04 04:22 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hanyo-alchemist.livejournal.com
Oh god, it hurts. D:

Date: 2007-04-08 11:27 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] writingbyebonio.livejournal.com
Aw, I'm sorry. I mean, I'm glad you feel Dean's pain, because that'd kind of the point, but I'm sorry I gave your heart a bit of an ache. Thanks for commenting.

Date: 2007-04-04 04:34 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] orphan-project.livejournal.com
I like. Very nice insite to Dean and how Sam wasn't amused at all when Dean started to laugh. I'm axious for more hun! <333

Date: 2007-04-08 11:28 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] writingbyebonio.livejournal.com
Thank you. It's good to hear that the character insights fit. And as always, there's more to come. Thanks for the feedback, as usual. :)

Date: 2007-04-04 08:03 pm (UTC)
From: (Anonymous)
Hi, glad to see you put it up!

Step 1 of the Initial Breaking Phase: Take everything until anything more than nothing seems good to him.

Brilliant. Will write an e-mail when I'm not so tired.

Yours
~L

Date: 2007-04-08 11:29 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] writingbyebonio.livejournal.com
Thank you so very much. And I'm glad you like my summary. Thanks for the feedback, as always.
~D

Date: 2007-04-04 09:57 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] vesuvianite.livejournal.com
He was like a hamster in a cage and he'd just been given his very own little hamster wheel.

That's a great line. And this one:

Sam rubbed slow circles at the small of his back and Dean knew it was meant to help ground him, pacify him, but Sam's hands never solved anything for him anymore. Sam's hands were part of the problem.

And I liked your inclusion of Dean rocking back and forth to calm himself.

Date: 2007-04-08 11:56 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] writingbyebonio.livejournal.com
Thank you very much. The hamster line is probably my favorite in this piece. So, I'm glad that the phrasing of things struck a chord with you. And I appreciate your feedback.

Date: 2007-04-05 01:54 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] akm30.livejournal.com
Oh, I'm soooo excited that you updated. I absolutely love your evil Sammy fics and how he's hurting Dean is sooo HOT! I'm looking forward to more! I also see "the old Sammy" I mean, only the old Sammy would be considerate enough to buy Dean a treadmill. I sense that the old Sam is still in there somewhere and loves Dean even if evil/Sammy has taking over.

Date: 2007-04-08 11:58 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] writingbyebonio.livejournal.com
Thank you! I'm glad you're enjoying this 'verse. And yeah, there is a bit of the old Sam peaking through, isn't there? One can only hope, for Dean's sake, that he's still in there somehow. Thanks for the feedback!

Date: 2007-04-05 05:48 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] culturegeek76.livejournal.com
Sam rubbed slow circles at the small of his back and Dean knew it was meant to help ground him, pacify him, but Sam's hands never solved anything for him anymore. Sam's hands were part of the problem.

The whole portion about the hands... aaargh.

I hate this Sam, which I'm supposed to. I know. I just... yeah.
(For some reason, I can identify with Dean here. Wow - I could get into a whole meta about the reader as Dean and the writer as Evil!Sam.... but I won't.)

This hurts so much. But it's so good.

Date: 2007-04-05 09:10 am (UTC)
From: (Anonymous)
"(For some reason, I can identify with Dean here. Wow - I could get into a whole meta about the reader as Dean and the writer as Evil!Sam.... but I won't.)"

Girl's got a point;)

Date: 2007-04-08 12:02 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] writingbyebonio.livejournal.com
*pokes you* I am NOT evil!Sam! I swear. You can check my closet! There is, in fact, no evil!Sam costumes. I am merely, The Evil Author. But, yes, the reader is supposed to be Dean, so I suppose if you're equating the author-torturing-reader relationship with the evil!Sam-torturing-Dean relationship, then ... maybe. *shifty eyes*

Date: 2007-04-08 12:00 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] writingbyebonio.livejournal.com
Thank you so very much. It's awesome to hear that the story affected you as a reader. And, although I'm not sure I'd classify myself as Evil!Sam exactly, I absolutely do mean for the reader to soft of BE Dean, in some sense. So, I'm glad that's coming through strongly, that you hurt for him, but that you're still enjoying the 'verse. I greatly appreciate your feedback.

Date: 2007-04-05 07:20 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] chrismouse.livejournal.com
Oh wow. I love you so much. I've been waiting for a new installment in this series for so long, and now I finally have one. YAY!

I love how Sam's present for Dean is just as much a present for himself as well. He wants Dean to be in proper physical shape for himself, not because Dean wants to be. My poor, broken Dean. Hysterical laughter is so how he would react to something like this.

Date: 2007-04-08 12:05 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] writingbyebonio.livejournal.com
Thank you! I'm always glad to hear that people are excited about the 'verse. And yes, Sam is, of course, very focused on what he wants/needs, so the fact that Dean might get something out of it could just be a bonus, depending on how you look at it. I'm glad Dean's reaction to this moment of breaking rang true to you. And thank you for the feedback!

Date: 2007-04-07 01:53 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pushkin666.livejournal.com
Sigh - I just love this series and whenever I see a new update I go into squee mode which is a tad scary! Dean is breaking so well - is it odd that I like that fact *g*

Date: 2007-04-08 12:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] writingbyebonio.livejournal.com
Awww, thank you! *hee* I'm so glad you're enjoying the 'verse. And no, it's not odd that you're enjoying the Dean-breaking, it seems to be one of the many pastimes in this fandom. :) Thanks for the feedback.

Date: 2007-04-08 09:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pushkin666.livejournal.com
yes, it does seem to be one of the favourite pastimes doesn't it - can't imagine why *g* I personally just love a vulnerable hurting Dean

Date: 2007-04-08 09:00 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] idiot4dean.livejournal.com
Like the other comments I love this Evil!Sam universe and look out for updates. Sometimes I just can't find the right words to explain the emotions that this creates.

I love how although he's been used and abused so often he doesn't know how long things have been going on but Dean still has enough of himself conscious to think about how absurd his life has become. Any little hope he gets is quickly quashed by Sam's reality. Laughter would be the only way to cope with the realisation that he was being treated like a family caged pet (a hamster).

As always looking forward to more chapters from this excellent universe.

Date: 2007-04-08 12:32 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] writingbyebonio.livejournal.com
Thank you so much! I love hearing that people are enjoying the 'verse, so any words whatsoever are always welcome. :) Dean's definitely holding on to pieces of himself, even through the breaking process, but coping with his reality is an immense struggle. So, I'm glad that his reaction worked for you. I appreciate your feedback and, there is always more of this 'verse on the way!

Date: 2007-04-12 01:00 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] missyjack.livejournal.com
Such an innocuous title, and no explicit 'punishment' but a piece so full of menace and foreboding, and the darkness of Dean's resignation to all this.

Date: 2007-04-16 01:45 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] writingbyebonio.livejournal.com
Thank you. I'm glad the menace and darkness came through. I definitely think the innocuous title goes along with the sheep's clothing nature of the gift, so I'm glad you found the emotional punch despite anyway. :)

Date: 2007-10-30 03:23 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kestrelsan.livejournal.com
I just recently discovered this series, so this is a blanket comment for all the installments so far--left here because this is actually my favorite of them. I mean, it's kink, yes, but it's so in character and true to what we know about them, and the dynamic you've created here seriously blows my mind. There's such a strong sense here of who Dean is, what makes him who he is. He loves Sam even if it's just a memory of who Sam was, but he isn't consumed by it; he knows this is fucked up, and you can see him trying to emotionally navigate the whole situation even as doors keep closing on him. And then you can completely flip this to Sam's perspective; the Sam who's been consumed by the demon who's also drawing on some of human Sam's latent bitterness (like the whole annoying younger brother jibe); the Sam Dean remembers, who's not entirely innocent himself; and then there's this middle Sam who probably does see himself as protecting Dean, preserving him the only way the new world order will allow.

There's so much going on even outside these scenes that this world just cracks open, you know? And I'm probably being terribly incoherent, but I did want to comment, even just to say to keep doing what you're doing. Because this is seriously fantastic stuff.

Date: 2007-12-15 12:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] writingbyebonio.livejournal.com
Thank you so much! What lovely feedback! I'm so glad that you're enjoying the complexity of the characters, their relationship, and this odd little world. Your comment is perfectly coherent and much appreciated. I will certainly keep doing this and I hope that you'll keep reading. In fact the next installment just went up, if you're keen for something new. :)

Plain Gold Band (NC-17, Slash/Het: Sam/Dean, Dean/OFC, Dean/OMC)

Date: 2007-12-17 06:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] neeuqdrazil.livejournal.com
You wring me out every time with these.

Date: 2009-09-16 08:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] darthnikki.livejournal.com
OMG, that was awful, not in the your story sucked way, no not at all the story itself was perfectly desperate. What I mean was it actually made my blood turn cold at the thought of Dean being hurt like that. I HATE it in fics when he gets called whore, and the fact that his brother was doing that? yeah like I said awful, and gut wrenchingly so, but at the same time perfect. Must read your other stuff now xx

Date: 2009-09-30 10:09 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] writingbyebonio.livejournal.com
Perfectly desperate eh? Why thank you! "Whore" is kind of a common word in this verse, alas (*secretly loves*), but I'm glad the ache of this got to you. :)

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