Fanfic - SPN: I Didn't Know Me Until I Met You (Sam/Dean)

[writingbyebonio]

Title: I Didn't Know Me Until I Met You
Author: eboniorchid
Fandom: Supernatural (AU)
Pairings: Sam/Dean, implied Sam/Kane
Characters: Sam Winchester (aka Sam/Shemhazai Gregory), Dean Winchester, John Winchester, Meg Masters (aka Gadriella Gregory), Kane Gregory (aka The Demon's unnamed son), and The Demon (aka Alistair/Azazel Gregory)
Prompt: "Hot Vengeful Assassin + Sexy Hero Target = Good Triumphs Over Evil + Love Conquers All" for undermistletoe's Harlequin Romance Week (due Dec. 12). Full undermistletoe prompt available here. List of 100moods chapter prompts available here, with my whole challenge table available here.
Word Count: ~30,000 words altogether.
Rating: NC-17 for language, violence, and sexuality.
Warnings/Spoilers: AU. Slash. Angst. Dark. Wincest. Violence. Graphic m/m sex. Smut. Manipulation. Implied non-con. Implied underage. Implied non-wincest incest. Hurt/Comfort. First time. Humor. Plot. Multi-chapter (complete). Lots of spoilers for the "Pilot," "Dead Man's Blood," "Salvation," and "Devil's Trap." Potential vague spoilers for various other episodes of Season 1.
Disclaimer: I own nothing. Really. Nothing.
Summary: On his first half-birthday, Sam Winchester was taken from his human family to be raised by one of the clans of the Grigori. These fallen angels, myth to most, are often called "demons" and many are hunted for their contributions to human bloodshed. Dean Winchester is one such Hunter. When these two connected souls find each other after 22 years apart, sparks will fly, but who will be burned?
Author's Notes: I thought this was an idea for a fic, but it turned out to be an idea for a fic UNIVERSE. *oops* Thanks to missyjack and miriad for audiencing. References available here. Translations of rituals available here.
Soundtrack: Information over here.
Archive: Umm ... probably. Just ask.
Feedback: PLEASE! I'd love it after chapters, but if you left some FB after you've read the whole thing, that would be fantastic. I LOVE FEEDBACK!



Chapter 1: I See and See into You
Chapter 2: I Feel You and Forget Myself
Chapter 3: I Bleed and I Kneel for You
Chapter 4: I Mend and Break for You
Chapter 5: I Laugh for You and Cry for Me
Chapter 6: I Find You and Lose Myself
Chapter 7: I Know Myself and Change You
Chapter 8: I Hear for You and Speak for Me
Chapter 9: I Call and I Open for You
Chapter 10: I Die for You and Stand for Me
Chapter 11: I Love and Leave for You
Chapter 12: And Now It Is for Us to Do

Comments

[missyjack.livejournal.com]

Me first!!! I just finished it. The confrontation be between Sam and his father was fantastic - and how he picked it was - great mirror on the canon scene. It amazes me how you used canon plot in this and STILL I was surprised.

And congratulations - its a great acheivement and a wonderful 'verse you've created. There's so many more stories I'd like to read. But before I loose those bunnies on you I'll let you bask in the glory of this!

[writingbyebonio.livejournal.com]

Oh MJ! It's so so good to see a comment here. Because I think this fic has totally eaten my brain! XD

I'm glad you liked the Sam-Demon confrontation with the canon twisted and weaved in there!

Thank you so so much for all the encouragement!

And DUDE! There are so many more stories to tell. I mean, I know that I left lots of space to add to this timeline let alone before and after. And I'm definitely thinking this 'verse does not have enough porn yet to really be one of mine. *hee* Totally hit me up with the bunnies, baby. I'm not going to get to them any time soon, mind you, but you might as well tell me while they're on the brain, ya know.

*big hugs*

[missyjack.livejournal.com]

I definitely want more of Sam's life with the Grigori, particularly in the early months when he is with Dean.
And Sam/Kane of course.
And while you touched on it, more of how Sam has to adjust to a 'normal' relationship.
And are there any other lovers in either Sam or Dean's past - maybe some who aren't quite human??
More Meg!!!
More Sam/Dean shameless porn. with some Sammy powers thrown in.

Well you asked for bunnies! *eyes accusingly* I told you I got totally sucked into this verse!

(BTW did you watch TW yet this week?)

[writingbyebonio.livejournal.com]

Lots of great ideas there, MJ! Dude that past nonhuman lovers thing? You're a total genius, because yeah ... I thought about ... things ... but ... we'll see where they go. LOL! And of course lots of porn from all angles. *hee* *adds everything to to-do list*

(TW is totally on my to-watch list, but this fic kind of didn't let me, so soon I shall flail as usual, I'm sure)

[wistful-fever.livejournal.com]

This was incredible. I read it all in one sitting and it kept me involved all the way through.

[writingbyebonio.livejournal.com]

Wow! Thank you so much! It's great to hear that you found it engaging!

[(Anonymous)]

I read it all in one sitting. Excellent!!

-Aya

[writingbyebonio.livejournal.com]

Oh wow! Thanks so much!

[phoenix-bellamy.livejournal.com]

Awesome.
I had to read it all in one go *_*...Very well done!

[writingbyebonio.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much!

[cocombat.livejournal.com]

I enjoyed this.
Good, entertaining read, with a fleshed out AU, and nice parallels with the canon.

Reading the prompt afterwards was hilarious though, because while this was more serious, and less camp than the prompt-novel, I could definately see the plot parallels.
So - is Dean actually of succubus descent? That sounds like an interesting idea to play with. ;)

Just to make sure I've got this straight: Sam is Mary & John's son, by way of John's possession by Azazel, right? And Azazel is the one that killed Mary, then kidnapped Sam to be raised by them, yeah?
If so, why does Sam refer to himself as a bastard? Is it because Azazel is being counted as a third parent? Or did I miss another guy there?
;)

Also, nice twist on the standard cesty guilt trip, Dean's was more the standard - oh god, my brother (but I'll deal with it anyway). Sam's more - oh god, my brother again. And ow. Could be worse things, obviously.

[writingbyebonio.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you found the story entertaining!

On canon: It's good to hear that the canon parallels worked for you.

On the prompt: Yeah ... the prompt was ... umm ... very hilarious in its bizarre drama, but I definitely tried to keep this in the spirit of the prompt as much as possible.

On succubi: Well, there are certainly some things I have thought to explore, but we'll see.

On Sam's origin: It's intentionally left ambiguous. I'll leave it at that for now. But I'd actually say that Sam's reference to himself as a "bastard" has less to do with the traditional "born out of wedlock" definition and more to do with being a "mixed-blood" or "half-breed", a person of mixed heritage, neither fully human nor fully Grigori. Too, I get the distinct impression that "bastard" is just a term that's been thrown at him a lot, so I think he's internalized it.

On incest guilt: I'm glad that twist was intriguing to you, because the whole idea of Sam trying to process his relationship with Dean in some twisted comparison with his relationship with Kane was really interesting for me to explore. And will hopefully continue to be as I add more stories to this verse.

Thank you so much for leaving detailed feedback. I really appreciate it!

[alznthlay.livejournal.com]

Don't think I could have put it down even if I'd tried.

Read all in one go, totally kickass 'verse. Loved it. And would love more ;)

But yes, this was great. :D

[writingbyebonio.livejournal.com]

Oh thanks so so much!

There will definitely be more!

Thanks for the feedback!

[eremir.livejournal.com]

Oh, wow. I read the first chapter last night, and I just had to have more. I thought I could stop after six chapters, but no... I didn't get much work done today. :)

I love this verse and how you've split the brothers up only to reunite them in this fabulous way. And it's great the way it reflects the last three episodes of season one and builds on them, making them completely different.

But I have to say the ending underwhelmed me. I would have wanted to see Dean come through on his threat to avenge Sam's rape, and I would have wanted to see Sam go apeshit on his former tormentors. But I love how you dealt with Azazel. Sam knowing the ritual by heart...

I love how Dean is soft and caring in this fic, but still Dean. So many fics lose track of character when they try to make Dean soft, but this didn't.

Good job. I will be expecting sequels. ;)

[writingbyebonio.livejournal.com]

Wow! It's always awesome to hear that the story draws in readers (even if they don't get much work done)! *hee*

It's also great to hear that the reuniting of the brothers and the twist on canon were interesting to you.

As to the ending, it kind of wasn't supposed to really be an ending, so I guess that's probably why it doesn't have the closure you'd like. I absolutely intend to explore more in this verse so I'm sure you'll see other stories that address how Sam and Dean deal with his past/tormentors.

I'm glad that Dean's characterization worked for you. It's something I worried about, so it's good to hear that he was softer but still Dean.

And yes, do keep your eyes peeled, I'm sure there will be many more sties coming out of this verse in the future. XD

Thanks for the really amazing feedback!

[eremir.livejournal.com]

I'll look forward to more fics, then. :)

[knownaskate.livejournal.com]

Wow. I'm just... speechless. WOW. O___O;;

That was really great! I wish I could give more constructive feedback, but I'm just... *flails* Totally at a loss for words!! Let's try one word: OMGILOVETHISFICSOHARDITHURTS. ♥ ♥ ♥

I can't wait to see more from this 'verse. ^^;; *bookmarks*

[writingbyebonio.livejournal.com]

Oh wow! Thanks so so much! I'm glad you throught it was so great! Thanks for the totally awesome feedback!

[jezdenly.livejournal.com]

I just read all of this, and I must admit I really really loved it. Are you thinking about writing any more to it? Cause I'm sure a lot of people would enjoy that! ;)

[writingbyebonio.livejournal.com]

Oh thank you! I am, in fact, thinking about more, I have two WIPs in the works that I'm sure I'll finish sometime and several plotbunnies are poking me too, so I'm sure there will be at least a few more stories in this 'verse. I'm so glad you liked it! Thanks for the feedback!